It is to date 4 yrs counting since I started this life style....perhaps it is redemption for my play time I had....but it has grown increasingly difficult to stay positive on things....I am physically, mentally and emotionally tired....tired of everything that happens, tired of everything that is going on....tired of this life style and the constant struggle of money and time.....I am not sure if I can hold out anymore.
Perhaps release is the right way. My Grampa chose it in the end....perhaps this is a possible turn of events for me that will release me finally from this trap I have fallen into.
Stricken by the loneliness of time, and the despair hitting me from every angle. I am about to lose the battle.
I wonder who will read this before it is really too late....
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